7/10/03 "New Metallica "

holy shit, all I've been able to think about all day
is that new Metallica single. The thing's so god
awful it's a masterpiece. I don't think since "Metal
Machine Music" has an established pop artist
deliberately put out something that sounds that
shitty! Granted, I've only heard their single on the
TV, but FUCK, fucking HORRIBLE, beyond just regular
bad. Like, to get a recording that bad you have to
TRY. You don't just be METALLICA, and have BOB ROCK
produce your goddamn album and then release the thing
and "oops, hey guys WE FORGOT TO FUCKING MIX THIS
THING!!!" I'm not gonna go as far as to say 'avant
garde', but DAMN, it's really an accomplishment to get
a song with that wretched of production on the
airwaves! The video is perfect, too. Like, what the
hell are these guys going for?

Derek, I really need this album, but there's no way
I'm gonna pay for it. If you have any promo copies at
your work, or anyone you know wants to make a
donation....I'll even borrow the thing for a month
just to write a review on it, and send it back. I
need to see the layout, and all that, so a simple CDR
won't do, but I'll settle for that if it's the best
that can be done. Derek, I really wanna hear this
album, but no one I know has the balls to buy it. If
you know anyone who can help, it'd be solid as fuck!
You rule dude. Later. Oh, I posted a "what's your
favorite Bruford era King Crimson album from the 70s"
poll on Hilaryfan.com. So far "Larks' Toungue in
Aspic" is winning by 100%!

7/10/03 "CHIT"

forgot to attatch those files

7/10/03 "welcome back"

glad those NY Jews didn't keep you for too long. The
girl with no boobs looked pretty cute for a 15 year
old boy. Lately I've been not sleeping, listening to
UFO's 1st album (I say if Blue Cheer's "Vincebus
Eruptum" is a 10 on the LOUD meter, UFO's 1st is an
8.5. "Ramones" would be about a 7, or 7.5, and "White
Light/White Heat" would be about 10, or maybe 10.5 [if
you only pay attention to the 2nd side, like I do]),
Beauty Pageant, and Roky Erickson A LOT. I wake up to
the "casting the runes" live CD, and usually go to
sleep reading Roky lyrics. I'm in love.

XXX

It's 4:00am and I have to wake up at five. I'm just
staying up all night. Chris and a guy with a really
low voice came over. He made pancakes, and we watched
Warriors. I read the interview you did with him. My
favorite part was when you asked what he thought of
Integrity, and he was like "it's a great thing". You
can guess what would happen if you asked me the same
question. That interview looked like fun, though.
I'd like to do one.

XXX

7/6/03 "hey cool guy"

1)my dad was having a party for some of his late 20s
alcoholic friends (he's in his 40s, but can't hang out
with people his own age 'cause he's brain damaged) and
I was playing the Beauty Pageant CD. A really tall
blonde girl said it reminded her of the Dead Milkmen
(the song was 'set my girlfriend on fire')

2)my dad says I make "gay poses" for pictures

3)my girlfriend sent me these pictures of her with a
cap gun. Vavavavoom.

7/4/03 "re: it's like that (and that's the way it's like)"

my mom it is, and I SORTA gave her the screen name.
We first got the internet when I was in middle school,
and I'd scour the Relapse mailorder catalog
religiously (this would be around '95). My favorite
thing was the Mayhem album "Deathcrush". I fucking
loved that name, but I had their other CD (the one in
latin), and I was BARELY feeling it at the time, and
"Deathcrush" had a huge import price, so I never
ordered it. The name never escaped me, though (I was
a BIG Gwar fan, so it kinda fell under that asthete)
and when we first got the internet and we needed a
fake name I was like "Deathcrush! Uh...ODIN
Deathcrush!" just 'cause it sounded good. My mom
liked it, and when she lived in the states she sorta'
"made a name for herself" in the on-line toy
collecting community (that's her thing, toy
collecting, mostly My Little Pony, I think Strawberry
Shortcake, Jem, shit like that. Her boyfriend is into
boys stuff, like Battle Beasts, and M.A.S.K.) and when
she moved to Canada, where her now-boyfriend lives,
like, 4 years ago, she just took the name with her
since she had so many "on-line friends" who knew her
by that name, I guess.

Side note to the screen name story: since my mom and
her boyfriend met online, sometimes they refer to
eachother by their screen names, but in a babbified
way. My mom's is Odin Deathcrush, and her boyfriend
calls her "odie", and his name is Rot N Hell, and she
calls him "Rottle".

Is my mom a kook? Well, aside from owning about six
Flying Luttenbachers CDS (I was wearing their tshirt
yesterday, which you need to know) she's around 40 and
has a Sick of It All tatoo on her ankle, just 'cause
she liked the design. I'll let you make the call on
that one

thanks for the kind words on the Crime Desire demo.
Our bass player is moving to New York for no reason at
all, so we're out a bass player. We need to find a
new one, which'll be tough, 'cause we want the
guy/gurl to be INTO hardcore, as you and I know it,
but also be able to hear me say "okay, now we need a
sorta' Hawkwind style bass line right here" and act
accordingly. Plus 3/4 of Crime Desire is straight
edge (the bass player guy was the stoner) so a non
druggie/alkie would just be more convenient for
touring, and stuff, though in lots of ways a non-sxe
is preferable in that for some reason most people need
drugs to have interesting music ideas. So if you know
anyone who wants to be in a hardcore band who lifts
riffs from King Crimson (there's a part in the into
that's totally ripped from "The Singing Drum" off the
2nd best KC album "Larks Toungue..." speaking of
which, if you have the "Earthbound" live release,
please get in touch) and lives in the San-Diego
region, or is moving here soon, please let us know.
Maybe you could post this on your website, or
something? He-he.

Alright, brother. Listen to the recently released
Heartattack discography (it's called "The Last
War-'80-'84". Hardcore with blastbeats from that era.
They have a song called 'English Cunts' which needs
to be heard. It's funny, though, 'cause I think their
drumming style borrows from The Damned, a'la the song
'Stab Your Back'). Take care, and have fun.